The man loves his run-on sentences, but this one's a beauty!
To regard Christ's knowledge as though he carried out his actions in time from some vantage-point of eternity - rather like a chess player of genius who quickly foresees the whole course of the game, and simply moves his men through a game which for him is already over - would be to do away entirely with his temporality and so with his obedience, his patience, the merit of his redemptive existence; he would no longer be the model of a Christian existence and of Christian faith. He would no longer be qualified to narrate the parables of expectation and waiting which describe the life of his followers.
Hans Urs Von Balthasar - A Theology of History, pg 39
At the beginning of that chapter he declares that "Christ's existence is receptivity". Since you have to say that our existence is subjective (JP II and Edith Stein really hammer that philosophy out well), it follows that our subjectivity relies totally on the receptivity of Christ to the Father. Our best hope is to be a reflection of that reception. So when we waste time in life trying to "find ourselves" it truly truly is a waste of time. The words of Paul frame the experience all creation is ultimately preparing for:
For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall understand fully, even as I have been fully understood. - 1 Corinthians 13.12